Chrysalis -- written by me
I'm not afraid of hate
After Love has dissipate
There's nothing more to be said
You might as well be good as dead
I dont understand--you said you prayed
What's with the slashes with the blade
I'd love to see your face classified as "The Late"
Maybe then I'll hold a party and celebrate
Or even come down to the National Parade
You cant say you leave this to fate
Where's your faith--I thought you were so "great"
You're full of nonsense so hidden in the shade
Whats happening to the friendship we made
I dont give a fuck youre not talking to me
Stupid bitch I'm unlike you--now I'm so happy
You follower of lost prophets and thats clear to see
You have a life but you're not free
Youre not like others who are so full of glee
Youre just an asshole trapped inside the bad memories and misery
(**Dedicated to Siti Aisyah a.k.a. Intan**)
It's been a while - Staind
(**I dedicated this song to Fi**)
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you tease
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
Hey Leonardo - Blessed Union of Souls
(**Lutfi dedicated this song for me**)
She don't care about my car
She don't care about my money
And that's real good cause I don't got alot to spend
But if I did it wouldn't mean nothin'
She likes me for me
Not because I look like Tyson Beckford
With the charm of Robert Redford
Oozing out my ears
But what she sees
Are my faults and indecisions
My insecure conditions
And the tears upon the pillow that I shed
She don't care about my big screen
Or my collection of DVDs
Things like that just never mattered much to her
Plus she don't watch too much TV
And she don't care that I can fly her
To places she ain't never been
But if she really wants to go
I think deep down she knows that
All she has to say is when
She likes me for me
Not because I hang with Leonardo
Or that guy who played in 'Fargo'
I think his name is Steve
She's the one for me
And I just can't live without her
My arms belong around her
And I'm so glad I found her once again
And I'm so glad I found her once again
And I'm so glad I found her once again
Gazing at the ceiling as we entertain our feelings in the dark
The things that we're afraid of are gonna show us what we're made of in the end
She likes me for me
Not because I sing like Pavorotti
Or because I'm such a hottie
I like her for her
Not because she's phat like Cindy Crawford
She has got so much to offer
Why does she waste all her time with me
There must be something there that I don't see
She likes me for me
Not because I'm tough like Dirty Harry
Make her laugh just like Jim Carrey
I'm like the Cable Guy
But what she sees
Is that I can't live without her
My arms belong around her
And I'm so glad I found her once again
Found her once again
I'm so glad I found her once again
Once again
Castigate the Obfuscation
My world obfuscated
When you left without a trace
My crystalline heart shattered
And I bled for days
I am still missing you
I wish you to come back
My world feels so blue
And will soon blends into black
My emotions byzantine
My body weak but sublime
I swallowed strychnine
To end my life in time
I know my feelings well
And I stashed it away from your probing mind
I'm sorry that I fell
In love with you, but I cant let it shine.
